Happy V Day!

I hope everyone is/ or had a wonderful Valentines Day...the day of love....romance....I believe my husband must have skipped this lesson...he has had to work late and we are having Fish and chips for dinner...not exactly romantic, right? To be honest, I believe my husband and I are completely on overload...with the move, business, and not knowing what will come next year for "J". She is only four and I can see that its going to be a interesting journey with the schools. I want to make everything perfect...you know like in "Leave it to Beaver"...or "Ozzy and Harriet" the shows are before my time, but they are so lovely...life seems so out of control now...I long for peace and quiet...a simple life...I'm not sure why this eludes me...I no I haven't always made the right or best decisions...but despite all my childhood dysfunctions...I do so try...did you know that approx. 90% of marriages involving special needs children, end in divorce, in the USA...Jasmine's case manager for school shared this bit of info...when I look at this number...WOW inspite of everything, my husband and I are holding on...some days aren't as good as others, but I figure this to be true with all marriages...and hey we have alot of extra stress. Please understand I don't mean "J" is extra stress...we want to take good care of her and provide for her...plan for her future...we worry about when we aren't here...I try to take one day at a time, but I don't know how. How does one walk in faith? What if you are making the wrong decisions, by faith? Not meaning to...you just don't know what to do....How do you walk by faith? What do you do about the decisions you have to make?

Some words of advice needed...guidance wanted...

Hassouneh Going Ons

So how are you guys doing? Moi, well ....besides feeling cheated from winter and ogling other peoples snow :)...in our home we are moving, birthday"g" it up, losing weight, making business decisions, and praying all the above turns out good.

"J" turned 4 recently...hard to believe my little baby is so big..."M" turns 2 soon...she to is growing up...we celebrated with "gannie" and "pawpaw" this past weekend. We had a wonderful time with my parents...we were able to enjoy the park...since winter has never arrived here...I know many of you might think I'm mad...but I really enjoy the snow, cold, and rain...I love the changes in seasons...all four bring such glorious feelings...

As far as weight loss, well I'm embarrassed to say that after four years of two children, many changes, and lot of stress my weight had plummeted out of control. I'm not obese, but could become so. I have joined Weight Watchers and I'm learning to control my "SUGAR" cravings...really I believe the more stressed I am...the more sugar I want...so I switched to Stevia...and portion control...planning....lots of veggies and fruits...and now I'm 7lbs lighter...you heard me 7 lbs in one week....actually I'm feeling alot better and don't seem to be having sugar cravings...I do need all of your prayers and good karma sent my way...I love food. Not processed junk...I like good wholesome foods...portion control though...portion control...

On to business...well....I don't want to go to much in to detail...but pray and send lots of good karma this adventure works out for our family. Please:)

Now on to moving...yes again we find ourselves changing places..."J" needs a school that can meet her needs...ie...hearing and vision impairment, alot of development delays...so we have to change counties...we decide to rent for now, as there are know schools for the blind here, so we will see what comes next...breath...patience...

Anyway I hope you all have a lovely day...and many good blessings are being sent your way..

Namaste

Yearning...and Dreaming...and hoping....

I have been pouring over "snowy" pictures in my favorite European Blogs...I just have to say it...I'm so jealous and its so not fair...why oh why ...I want some snow...and some rain...what is the deal???? Honestly the winter average temp...65 degrees F. Have I ever told you ...I adore the snow...and actually love the rain, as well. Its lovely and gives you this sense of comfort...you have an excuse to linger in your PJ's...to take the day slowly...playing out ever second...I say this all "choked Up" I want some snow...please...big flakes...full of nothing but happiness...Oh Lord, if you could so find time ....of course I know you are busy with the Middle East Crisis, Elections , sickness, death, disease and destruction....in between there though....I would really appreciate some of the cold, white, fluffy drops from heaven...

Holding Ones Breath...

I haven't been blogging lately...many changes, possible opportunites, motherhood, wife, and housekeeper are keeping me busy...my family and I have a wonderful opportunity to bring alot of stablility to our life...requesting all prayers, good thoughts, good karma, and all around good vibes, please send our way...this would go along way to making life breathable, after the last 4 years we really need this...short post I know...but so important!!!

Thanks